Lumina and Lecrae

Sometimes I just sit in my car and wonder...
I wonder about all the times I have seen
the places I have been
The people I have met and have grown to love.

I was telling a friend of mine some of the stories
These stories are a part of our lives

They become the surface though
Because in all those stories
lie deeper stories
the ones that trully have shaped you
For the good
as well as bad

Welcome to my inner depths
A small bit atleast

Lecrae wrote a song. I think it speaks for most of us.
I know it spoke for me. This has been my last year. Enjoy.

Artist: Lecrae lyricsAlbum: RebelYear: 2008


Woke up this morning too depressed and shamed to leave my bed
Can't stand to see my own reflection so I hang my head
Feel like a disappointment like the scum of the earth
I'm so hurt I know you see I can't cover my dirt
My souls dying hearts weak and I can't even cry
I'm sposed to run to you but WHY I'm such an evil guy
The sun's shining but for me it's the darkest of days
Try to pretend it never happened but the guilt remains
I leave the house it feels like everybody knows I did it
Feels like they reading my mind and know the sin I committed
Through your blood I'm aquitted but my heart doesnt get it
Oh God I'm desperate for Help cause I'm grieving your Spirit
I couldn't sing in the sunday service, Lord I felt fake
And when they started communion I just made an escape
I'm in need of your graceFeels like you hid your face
Lead me back to cross and show me my sins erased

I'm waste deep in my pity
Is Satan tryna trick me and tell me you won't forgive me
Cause it's startin to get me
Jesus help me quickly I hate wrong I've done
I know we all fall but I feel like the only one
Feels like I should be shunned
Should I punish myself
I know it's dumb cause by your death all my sin has been dealt
But my sin is been felt
I didn't want to do it
But what I want to do I don't
I swear I'm gonna to lose it
Try to open my bible I need to read your pages
I need you Lord but my guilt has got me feeling so faithless
Help me see where your face is
Take me back to the basics
Help me find my joy in you and not people and places
My sin is ever before me I turned my back on you
Oh father break and restore me to bring me back to you

Have mercy on me God according to your steady love
Wipe away my transgression and wash me in your blood
Create in me a clean heart renew a right spirit
Don't take your Spirit away your Presence keep me near it
I'm waiting patience on you Lord I know you hear my cry
Restore your Joy in me
For you alone I live and die
It's you I Glorify cause you don't want my sacrifice
You want me broken and contrite trusting in the Christ
I confess to you my sin and you show me mercy
I turn away from it demonstrating that you are worthy
Over lust, over pride, over all sin
Is my affection for Jesus is who died for all them
I was lost now I'm found I was toss to the ground
My sin weighed on me heavy but I am no longer bound
As sure as Christ wears the crown
I know that grace will abound
And even when I feel lost I know in You I am found

And even when I feel lost I know in You I am found....I know in you....I am found.
Love you guys. allow God to dig deeper into those hidden areas. He knows they are there anyways. Lord help me trust in you. Trust that you can trully heal me. bring back the joy of my salvation. In you I trust. I know you have my back God. Sometimes we just have to wait on you. Your timing. not ours. I am really glad its that way. really thankful too.